Here’s my contribution to Velvet Verbosity’s 100 Word Challenge. This week’s word was unconscious. I’m not apologizing for my writing here—just offering up a warning that it may be hard to read, which was a result-thing, not an intent-thing.
Every time I see a blue, pilled bathroom rug, I think of how markedly different the movement of a frog is from that of a snake. And when I’m on a windy beach at night, which happens more than you’d guess, I never think about blood where it doesn’t belong. Shopping malls fail to inspire thoughts of moving forward in the absence of nearly everything a person needs.
But it’s a rare night when I don’t awaken sweaty, choking on the image of a baby at the bottom of a pool. So unconsciousness is a thing I dole out carefully.
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| My husband had the computer. |
I found you from Lou's blog. Don't apologize. Writing well needs preferences, opinions, & needs to be freed, if only for the moment.
ReplyDeleteWow.
ReplyDeleteheart breaking. thanks for your courage in sharing.
ReplyDeleteThat took a turn I didn't expect! Great write, so sad.
ReplyDeleteOften you write what you need to. This was a demon that needed to be exorcised. Well done.
ReplyDeleteI'd like to learn more, if you ever feel like explaining.
ReplyDeleteI once heard John Irving speak - before I had children of my own. He said something along the lines of how cursed it can be to have an imagination because he always imagines the deaths of his children. Every day since I became a mother seven years ago, I've imagined the same. And it usually involves water.
ReplyDeleteThat image of the baby...so heart stopping. Our minds can be so cruel.
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Thank you for reading and commenting.
ReplyDeleteAs for explanations. . .ummmm. . .I'm just talking about how sometimes there is a deliberate effort to block thoughts that are associated with certain images, places, or things. So if a blue bathroom rug is going to bring up horrible memories for me, I'll choose to think other thoughts. But that once you're asleep, you have no control over where your mind goes.
I love the stream of consciousness feel of your writing, and how you kept me off balance while still feeling like I knew exactly what you were saying. Very nicely done.
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